Situationship who?
I read a comment on a TikTok video where someone explained a situation-ship as dating but one person wants to be in a relationship and the other doesn’t so they just end up in a situation where they wait to see who breaks first. Anyways, I can’t say I don’t know how I ended up here because I do and I was fine with it but in my humble opinion I did not think the situation would last this long. Humbly, I thought he would realize how badly he wants to be with me, how his life is dull without me, and then ultimately he ends up begging me to be his one and only.
Three periods later and that has not happened yet. Yes, I am measuring in periods because that is when I feel most passionately angry about this.
I want to be someone who plays it cool and God knows I would never force someone to do something they’re not ready for and I don’t want to pressure him into the idea of dating me (Also who even needs to be pressured into dating me look at me). Yet, I can’t call him my “boyfriend,” which yes it is just a label but one I love.
What’s more is the question of what can’t I do? Like, what is not allowed to claim as a situationship partner. Can I be jealous? Can I say, “Hey, that’s actually my man!” How do I explain the concept of him to my friends and family? He’s someone who I go on dates with every week and talk to everyday but we’re not boyfriend and girlfriend. We’re going through and watching the whole Marvel Cinematic Universe together from start to end as well as starting an anime and Yellowjackets. I’ve met his mom, sister, and niece and he’s basically been on a double date with my brother and another girl.
Some might say we are really good friends.
He and I have a joke of calling each other pal because I recently visited him at work and I wanted to say bye so I found him only for him to give me a fist bump with the words, “See ya, pal.” Which is crazy… or I’m just crazy for thinking that’s crazy. The sad part of this all is he doesn’t even see this getting serious like I do and I know I deserve better but that brings on a whole new set of problems of having to re-navigate the dating field. Moreover, I think I like him so much that I might just let him continue to use me until I have nothing left to give him anymore that he would want.
Yes, I am still on dating apps and I despise it. I’m supposed to go on a date tonight but Mr. Situationship said that he “might” want to catch a movie if he gets off early. Call me pathetic but I will be planning my whole night around if he can get off early or not. This isn’t even an advice piece, it's a warning piece. Do not end up in a situation like me. Fair warning it will only cause you to have self-doubt about your looks and who you are as a person.
I miss the time when people would go on dates with the idea of wanting more in mind and not just to mess around because they can. Or maybe it’s just me.